Anger vs laughter

This I can definately agree with! I don’t handle being angry well- I just prefer not to get angry! But when I have I tend to feel awful for hours after and can be a bit poorly.

I like the thought of laughter making the immune system better! Laughter is the best medicine after all! Even when it’s snort/crying/hyena laughter 😂.

Day 36 positiveness

This particular quote struck a cord with me today. 6 years ago to this day I had just had a week pass after I suffered a miscarriage. I never thought I could feel so miserable in my life but there it was.

I didn’t feel like anything could get better. And it didn’t, not for the next few months at least. I had gone back to work around this time. I did my job, I smiled with the children I looked after, but to be honest I got to a point where I was numb to everything. I felt like I couldn’t feel, and my partner at the time went on as normal. (or what felt like it)

I think what made the experience so traumatic was that I felt so alone. He didn’t come with me to the hospital. Or come see me. People I thought would be there were not there and because of this, I didn’t reach out to others cos well, what was the point?

It was a very dark time in my life, this was the first look I got into living with depression.

It took me a long time but, with support from my closest friends, disconnecting myself with negativity, a few sessions of counselling and also getting myself motivated as best as I could, whether it was a split second of it, I got through it.

I am very proud of myself.

The whole experience was something that filled me with fear every day. But, as time has gone on and as I have grown older, it scares me less and less. Sure, I get moments where things feel a bit overwhelming and I suppose in some way I feel a bit stunted in my emotions and feel I can’t express them the way I used to.

But its shown me to not give up. It took me so long to love my books again, my favourite place to get away. It has been a year now since I got that back. It has also shown me I should never take anything less than what I deserve. I didn’t deserve to be left alone. I didn’t deserve to suffer alone. But I know my value.

Because of this I am much more confident and thrive on taking on challenges, instead of hiding.

Like everyone else that has gone through a traumatic experience. You deserve everything and more. You should be proud of yourself. For being here today. 😊

Much love,

Gemma x

Super woman

Today marks the year my mum went through a traumatic experience, something that even scared the hell out of me.

I didn’t find out until 2 days later, but it all started and ended in my mum being attacked for her handbag, around the corner from her house. She got pushed back, she hit the pavement and passed out. Luckily her boyfriend wasn’t far behind so she wasn’t alone for long.

She found out she had broken her shoulder which resulted in her getting a metal plate in her shoulder.

Now my mum has been through a hell of a lot through her life, damn I can’t even imagine how half of those things feel, but she’s a surviver, and will get through it no matter what.

She has built up her strength, got through the pain, deals with the anxiety of it all every day, all whilst trying to get through every day things.

She joked she could tie up her hair with one hand. (I did attempt this and failed. 😂) but she managed and survived.

She got made redundant just before the incident but she managed to get herself a part time job in October and she’s absolutely loving it.

Absolute super woman 💪.